2 posts tagged “disneyland”
you know when some things are too close for comfort? you just go somewhere or someone says something and it sparks up some whole past memory and drives you absolutely insane. that's probably the only way i could describe this past sunday. from the awkward feelings to the methods of playing, from the frozen lemonade to the types of rides, it all seemed so.. similar.
looking away from my bad habits of shyness, and not speaking up, and feeling intimidated by sweet guys, that whole feeling from above simply shut me up for the entire day. what should have been incredibly enjoyable, a great addition to what should be an amazing summer home was just.. a remind of what was and what isn't. well okay, maybe that's not quite right, i did have a nice time. i mean, hell, disneyland is always fun. but looking back, i know i must have seemed so ridiculous with a frown or what not on my face at seemingly random times during the day. but whatever, the past is the past. at least i came out with a new friend, a souvenir, and a few cute pictures. and uh, at least we got on the nemo ride, even though the line seemed like it took ages.
i wish i could say more about the day, the aftermath, and whatever else, but i'm incredibly down right now.. and i'm being distracted by the godfather: part ii, but that's beside the point. i guess.. i just never thought that a loss of.. hope. just hope, nothing more, could have such a negative effect. but then again, i've never really been the optimistic type, so i guess dashing me down when i am on such an unusual high would have that sort of effect. but whatever, because now i'm just rambling on.
..in brighter news, the house looks nice.
i feel like i work too much. 1pm-9:30pm, five days a week. hello full time. thank goodness ritz isn't terrible. unfortunately it's not all that great either. i really enjoy doing the film processing.. the printing and editing, that's what makes my day. but then again, there's the customers and pushing sales and all of that other crap which i can't really stand. or well, when it gets incredibly busy 20 minutes before closing, catching eric and i off guard. but a job's a job, and i guess it beats fast food or something.
i'm going to disneyland tomorrow [today?]. really, that's the only thing on my mind. for the past.. month? month, i guess. i've been talking quite a bit to one of jenelle's friends from sjsu, nick. i guess we really hit it off, and now we're spending quite a bit of text messages and phone calls on each other. [deja vu?] soo this means i'll be at disneyland with jenelle and this nick character. it's exciting. and nervewracking. but to be completely honest, it just feels like i've already done all of this before. i guess the only thing left to do is not to expect anything and keep my chin up. it'll all be alright.. right?
mm. my summer is drifting away, i can just feel it. work ended up completely consuming me and now it's left me with literally no time to see too many people. i hate to admit it, but i almost feel as if coming home was a waste, aside from a few days and a couple of upcoming paychecks. at the moment, it feels like andrew and malcolm won't be able to come out to see me, especially if my work schedule keeps up like this. i need to find out when i have to quit. all i know is that on august 21st, i believe, i will be back in rochester for who knows how long. that leaves me with approximately.. what, 1 month 6 days? well fuck, i need to get out of ritz soon, don't i.
