2 posts tagged “summer”
i feel like i work too much. 1pm-9:30pm, five days a week. hello full time. thank goodness ritz isn't terrible. unfortunately it's not all that great either. i really enjoy doing the film processing.. the printing and editing, that's what makes my day. but then again, there's the customers and pushing sales and all of that other crap which i can't really stand. or well, when it gets incredibly busy 20 minutes before closing, catching eric and i off guard. but a job's a job, and i guess it beats fast food or something.
i'm going to disneyland tomorrow [today?]. really, that's the only thing on my mind. for the past.. month? month, i guess. i've been talking quite a bit to one of jenelle's friends from sjsu, nick. i guess we really hit it off, and now we're spending quite a bit of text messages and phone calls on each other. [deja vu?] soo this means i'll be at disneyland with jenelle and this nick character. it's exciting. and nervewracking. but to be completely honest, it just feels like i've already done all of this before. i guess the only thing left to do is not to expect anything and keep my chin up. it'll all be alright.. right?
mm. my summer is drifting away, i can just feel it. work ended up completely consuming me and now it's left me with literally no time to see too many people. i hate to admit it, but i almost feel as if coming home was a waste, aside from a few days and a couple of upcoming paychecks. at the moment, it feels like andrew and malcolm won't be able to come out to see me, especially if my work schedule keeps up like this. i need to find out when i have to quit. all i know is that on august 21st, i believe, i will be back in rochester for who knows how long. that leaves me with approximately.. what, 1 month 6 days? well fuck, i need to get out of ritz soon, don't i.
aside from the pace of my summer vacation, i suppose my time at home has been.. decent. i haven't seen as many people as i would have liked to, but i guess i can blame myself for that. although i'm kicking myself quite a bit, because i have a habit of missing my cousin christian when he's in bonita. really, i haven't seen all that much of my family, aside from my grandma. she's moving to one of the condos my aunt and uncle are building in imperial beach.. so unfortunately, that means our family loses her amazing house. it was downright perfect for large parties.. but i guess mostly, it's such a shame to lose something that has been such a big part of your entire family's life. i can't even count how many memories i have from that place.. although they're not all that great, including the ones which include me getting toys snatched away by cousins and getting nailed by a tangerine during a makeshift game of baseball with citrus fruits.
i ended up going to a lot of high school events. spring show, end of the year concert, award show, graduation, etc. i feel out of place there now. in fact, i feel a little out of place in general in san diego now. as much as i'd love to stay here, it just feels all so wrong. back in new york, i'd dream about coming home and just grabbing so much attention from all of my old friends.. but alas, not so much aside from an initial hug and smile. maybe that's just a little selfish of me, seeing as it was only three months after my last time home. or maybe we're all just growing up and growing apart. i can't even connect to a lot of the people i was so tight with at this time last year. and nowadays, the only person i talk to online on a regular basis is laura. whatever whatever whatever, moving on.
i guess you could say the highlights of summer so far have been seeing the majority of people i have seen so far.. and changing my hair, definitely that. it was overdue for something new anyways.. the last time i got color put in it, or well.. color put in decently and professionally, would have been the first time i went to my salon, young ideas, in.. seventh grade. i guess another high point would be finding someone who showed a pretty strong interest in me. the two of us and jenelle spent a good amount of time sitting in front of her fire pit one night.. then i decided that it was past my bedtime, and hopped up to leave. immediately following me was this boy, who then refused to let me go home and suggested that we should "hang out together for like, four more hours." we ended up sitting in my car in front of jenelle's house for maybe an hour before she came out and kicked him out of my car. it's funny though, i have a habit of finding guys who uh, already have a girlfriend. this situation, no different. ah oh well, it wouldn't be worth it, i don't care much for long distance relationships anymore anyways.
i suppose that's it. i'm absolutely exhausted after a day of waking up early and errands. i feel like heading upstairs and curling up under my blankets, watching top chef and court tv until i fall asleep. unfortunately, that's really all i do nowadays. soooo, let's play, so my evening's can be a little more eventful. (:
